Alarm clock screaming bare feet hit the floor
It’s off to the races everybody out the door
I’m feeling like I’m falling behind, it’s a crazy life
Ninety miles an hour going fast as I can
Trying to push a little harder trying to get the upper hand
So much to do in so little time, it’s a crazy life
It’s ready, set, go it’s another wild day
When the stress is on the rise in my heart I feel you say just
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe
This song….it’s me…it’s exactly how I feel lately. Too many things to do. Not enough time. Stress. Chaos. I’m feeling like I’m falling behind, it’s a crazy life.
And I’ve really noticed this lately, because… I haven’t been blogging a lot. But as soon as I start blogging again… I FEEL OVERWHELMED. Right back into CHAOS I go. And then I notice bull CRAP happening in the blogosphere. People…friends…compromising their integrity…at least in MY EYES…just to get free makeup.
WHY OH WHY?!!!
It’s partly due to my personality type I think? I don’t do anything half-assed. I pretty much pour my heart and soul and my all into everything I try in this life. It’s my mama’s voice I hear in my head, telling me I can do better. And I never did want to disappoint her. Or you guys?
Just BREATHE. I want to keep on going…blogging…I really do? But I can’t seem to keep up anymore. Plus when others I call friends don’t care about what they do or say? Is all this worth it? Does anybody ELSE notice the wrongs that happen? Or is it just me?
Does all this matter? Should I care about other people? Their integrity? I feel like blogging is losing it’s credibility lately. Do you feel that way as well?
Does it matter that I don’t post every day? Every other day? Once a week?That I only post when I can? When I am inspired? Does it matter to those of you that actually read my blog? Tell me. Please.
This year has been quite the spiritual soul search for me. I’m alone a LOT. And, I don’t mind being by myself because I have a lot of feels. And thoughts. About the big L-life, in case you didn’t get that. I’m an introvert EXTRAORDINAIRE, so I love my alone time. And when I’m alone I get to think about life a lot. All that alone time has made me realize that I need to stop and BREATHE more often. That it’s good for me. And it’s also made me realize that I want to talk and write about OTHER STUFF, not just makeup and skincare.
About the other stuff I care about! Hiking, mountains, FOOD…I care a LOT about food HAHAHA. Hey, I’m a chubby girl…what’d ya’ expect? 😀
So….I’m gonna take a break for a bit here… revamp the site a bit…make it simpler…make it look more ME. Make it more about the stuff I LIKE. I’m not a complicated person at all…I’m pretty much a “you get what you see” kinda’ person. But I think you already know that, right?
I’ll be back…soon. Stronger. Better. BRAVER. And ready to challenge every fucker out there. Every fucker that lies about stuff. Every fucker that sells their soul for free makeup. EVERY. FUCKER. All of them. Because, I don’t give a rat’s ass what they think…or anybody else who lies. I’m gonna fight for blogging! To keep it REAL, and not sell out. I’m not trying to make a living off my blog. I make enough to pay the blog bills…that’s it. If you can make a living and keep it real still, I bow to you.
And I’m kind of excited to start talking about LIFE…and other stuff…and still makeups…because LORDY nothing makes my day like an awesome new blush! #stillaBlushfiend
I’m finally ready. To just BREATHE. And be, just be. I hope you’ll join me for the ride.